Balance Adjustments

I lost my favorite notebook. Made like a hardcover book with a fold over snapping flap with a place for a pen underneath. The pages smelled like newly minted twigs, and newspaper ink.If I could drink them they would taste like that golden dragon white tea I buy in Hugos. I tell my friends the tea tastes like archival matte board.

The day I found it I also found my long lost glasses. My good glasses, my reading glasses, my seeing things up close glasses. Still haven't admitted i also need glasses for seeing things from far away. I was running around using my spares for weeks, not wanting to spend more to buy new ones when I was still paying off the bill.

My dad is forgetting a lot lately. It is scary to him, not remembering whole days of time or what he did an hour ago. Last time I talked to him he told me that at least he could still remember my name. He goes over and over in his head what he does remember, hoping repetition will cement the memory in place. He said the retrieval time is longer. He has to swim further out each time to find where the waves wash over him. When are they going to start inserting new hard drives into our heads? Update your memory banks with some new fresh ram.

You make a change, put more of your markers on one side of the long board and you have to walk out further to gain equilibrium. Like 2 kids shifting their weight on a see saw. One day I'll be catapulted right off.
The more rabbits there are, the more wolves there are, the fewer rabbits the fewer wolves. That's why putting predator insects on crops to kill off the parasites never works. The predators never kill off all their prey. The species on this planet are all interdependent, or were until we took over the change part of the equation and forgot to fight for the balance.
When are we going to get that there can be no balance until men and women are true partners, when the rights of all living things on this planet are respected.

It comes natural to us, playing with our own evolution, changing it and the evolution of everything on this planet. But what we aren't good at is establishing a new balance once we have melted the icecap.

Chasing down wolves in Alaska with helicopters just doesn't seem to be the answer. Had to turn off the newscast right before they gunned down that frightened wolf.

Anyway I found my glasses and notebook on the back floor of my car, I had searched there many times before. I picked up the glasses, wearing them right now, but the notebook is still there. Waiting for me to write down some explanation of it all. Something that will make sense.
Will I be able to find my dad on the back floor of my car when I lose him?